my life is a joke.

i need to vent so…

im TRYING to do the nursing program and its just not working out to well. im fucking ignorant. why did my mom have to birth a ignorant child. no matter how hard i study or try i always FAIL. so im already struggling with anatomy then i think i might pass with a B then here comes math. what is my current grade?! a fucking F bec im ignorant. and my professor told me prettty much the highest grade i will get is a C uhm no that will not get me in the nursing program so what do i do? drop it and delay when i get to apply, and probually not get in? finish it with a C and never get anywehere in life? passing with a C means im not getting into the nursing program so i might as well reconsider my life and give up my dream.then my english class we have to do a research paper and every topic i picked was denied. okay. so now i finally know what im writing on but i have no idea where to start. and its due tomorrow. so i dont know if i should drop out of college, lay in the road to get run over,or  pick a new career. it just sucks so bad to try so hard and still fail. 

besides school…

BOYS: like holyshit.. omg i could say so much on this topic. i tend to lean more towards the ‘of color’ boys that is going to stopp TODAY. they are just so i dont even have words to exsplain it. apprently i have a repretation where hit me up and i will suck your dick. NO I WILL NOT. like wtf. then okay lets say you like a boy and he doesnt like you okay so you stop duh then many months later he is like “hey” i wish i could just be like “no bitch back the fuck up and leave me alone” but no here i am being ignorant again. its just too much. and i only have this problem with ‘of color’ boys. then they try to act like they are my dad. helllll no. back up. they say you met the person your gonna marry by like 18 i really fucking nope not. i met no mother fucker i would ever want to be with. 

end rant.